Conservative.

I feel sad for this word. It has, somehow, a negative connotation. Traditions, bondages, no-lifers, pathetic backward Asians. Okay, i do agree that i'm a lil over, but you can't deny that 'conservative' does have a negative connotation... esp. in the 21st century when people are seeking 'identity', 'true love', and 'freedom'.

Was watching this cheena show just now. There's this married women who's contemplating about whether or not to cheat on her hubby. It's been portrayed that if she doesn't 'follow her heart and go for that guy', she's being conservative and backward in her thinking. Even my mum thinks that she should commit adultery.

Is it conservatism? Or isit simply being wise? If, or rather when, that character commits adultery, there are dire consequences on her family. They may end up in a divorce, a broken family for the daughter. Is it worth it? A happy family for a 'true love', or rather true lust.

If one would abandon the family for 'the one', wouldn't he abandon 'the one' for 'the other one'?

It's so heart wrenching to realise that the people around you are falling into a never-ending cycle of seeking. Seeking for overwhelming emotions, only but a bunch of feelings, but never finding answers. They'll never be fulfilled.

Call me dumb, call me conservative. I'll rather be conservative than deceive myself.